secrets make you awake♥

hey dear ppl.
Just came back from makan at gombak with love.
and before that from my auntie hse, kenduri for my arwah nenek. Well, its hard for me to except it thoh. This is the third time posting about somone in my life has pass away.
the story was like this, i was working and mother called me and says that nenek is in veryvery super critical condition. i was shock and ask mother to call my manager and tell her. So i called my kakak sedare to inform her incase she dont know. i called her and she said that she is on her way back home, to pick up her children. and i said lah, nenek is in the critical condition and stuff. And she said yes, i know. she already nazak and im rushing now. then i was like HUUUUUH????!!! i straight away packed my things and stop a cab and drive me there.
When i reached at my nenek ward. everybody was there crying and praying for her. i went straight to nenek and hold her hands which was super cold. and i say to her from my heart. *secret* and then i cried. then i backed out and let my nenek children stay by her.
as i looked at them moaning, i cried asual. Then i sms all the ppl to havent reach yet to come faster. i kept pestering them. including my mother who was waiting for my brother to come home from camping.. But atlast , mother and father come without my brothers. becaus its too late, nenek has pass away already.. even my kakak sedare plus her siblings was nenek closest grandchildren dont get to see her while she was still alive..
Yes, i cant believe that my dear late grandmother has pass away..hmm.

Currently im at home alone. i dont know what time is my family want to come back.
i msg them didnt reply. hmmn.

Okay lah. thats all. need to get a early rest because tommorrow need to wake up super early. 7am. 8 must be at antie house already..

goodnight forever my dearest late grandmother..
Zhiela, ur dear granddaughter.